Dolphins and Bridges and How to Get Back Into My Heart

A few days ago I posted some insights from a book "The Zero Point." One of the things I mentioned was my inability to 'love.' Okay. I've also been struggling to remember my dreams. The last week I've been demanding my subconscious to remember my dreams, to work with me on recall. After four nights of not being able to remember, last night I dreamed a very weird dream. I was on a steel bridge built across a churning ocean, dark and gray. I was walking across to another land mass and I said; "If there's an earthquake and the bridge crashes into the sea, call out to Neptune. He'll get you to shore." And I kept walking. 

Today I was listening to Samadhi Speaks with Kerry K and she was discussing heart activation with Amanda Florence. So many times I hear about all these people in tune with Ascension energies and how they are feeling things happening and I kept wondering if I needed my heart activated because of my inability to feel? Then Amanda spoke about getting out of linear thinking and back into the heart, get out of the mind, stop studying, stop reading and move into heart space. Well, that sounded awesome, but for someone like me... what to do? Then Kerry added, "There's a bridge one must travel to get to the heart from the mind. It's a bridge linking the two." (Paraphrased.) 

BAM! 

(I use BAM! A lot. Forgive the dramatics. 😇)

I put the brakes on. What the heck? My dream was just last night and I'm listening to her speak about a bridge? And guess what was under the bridge? Churning waters! Churning EMOTIONS! And guess what color those emotions were? Dark! I thought, "Why did I mention Neptune? I'm more in tune with Greek mythology, not Roman. Why not Poseidon? Nope. It was Neptune. And what animal helps people to shore? Dolphins! So I went in search of Neptune's sacred animal. Yup. DOLPHINS! BAM! The link here talks about how Dolphins help one to clear out negative emotions to help one to learn how TO FEEL again!!! All of this happened within the span of 5 minutes!!! 

If you don't think that Source was talking to me, I don't know what to tell you, but this was INCREDIBLE! 

Check out this link to Animal Guides for Dolphins, and you better believe I'm going to call on Dolphin power to help me release those emotions. I'm ready to fucking FEEL again, and now I'm beginning to understand why I'm not able to. 

Dolphin Magic

Blessings! 

💜

UFO Insights: Disclosure... But What Kind? Part 2

So, back to Alexa's book "The Zero Point." How does the preceding blog installment co-mingle with what I'm going to share with you from this book? Hang in there, it jives together, trust me.

From Chapter 6: Love (Almost) under the section "This Thing Called Life."

"Human beings have become an endangered species in today's world. Human doings, on the other hand, have reached epidemic levels. With the help of technology – particularly social media – human doings are engaged in moment-by-moment distractions (me, here: GUILTY!). All you have to do is watch two people walking down the street. One is bound to be on his or her cell phone, minimally participating in life. We've all done it. I know because I've done it too, and I was a pro.

"What's worse is that we use being busy as both a badge of honor and an excuse for not being present or available. People claim they want to have time for (fill in the blank), when what they really mean is "I don't want to." Instead, they'll say something like "It's this thing called life." If you're busy, you don't have to speak your truth."

BAM!

That was the first in about three sections that I highlighted in this chapter. What did it say to me? Check out the second area I highlighted and I'll put it all together:

"When you are running around with your hair on fire because you have crammed every area of your life with activities, you have successfully created a boundary between your doing self and your being self. There is no time to feel feelings – too many people are counting on you! Everyone has busy periods, but when it becomes a way of life, it is a sign of dysfunction. You create a situation of needing to be needed so that you don't have to deal with yourself."

Okay this is the first part of that second area (more to come, but first….): I spent 32 years and 1 month working a job I despised. I had to take, at the least, 17 phone calls a day from people wanting transcripts and arguing with me on how to get them. "Well why can't I do it this way? Why can't you just do it this way? Why do I have to go through all this just to get my transcripts?" Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. They would not listen, they did not WANT to do what they needed to do to obtain their transcripts. They wanted them handed over on a silver-platter because of laziness. And then they would not give me the correct information I needed to locate their records on microfilm. (IKR? Still on microfilm, but this was my life up until I retired at the end of September 2018.)

Each person who walked-in, each phone call, I had to repeat the script over and over and over and over. And it got worse over the span of 15-20 years because I was the only one who knew how to deal with a spaghetti microfilm system, and school sites who could not keep up with keeping track of their records. The main office, instead of giving phone requests or in-person requests to the person in charge of said school's records, referred them to ME. And these poor people would get the run-around because I would not have those records and they would have to go back to the school. I would give them specific instructions: "Do not talk to the main office. Ask specifically for the person in charge of records." Every – damn – day would this crap go on. But since I was the only one who knew all the tricks… I became invaluable to this place of employment.

The job slowly killed my spirit to helping anyone. My compassion got clobbered so badly that it's still covered in sludge even though that sludge is now bubbling, indicating my compassion is not completely dead. And honestly, I owe even that much of a healing to those who believe in Ascension and ETs. Not the conspiracy theorists, not the Cabal-hunting, Reptillian 'they're out to get us' circles. But the honest to goodness people striving to awaken human consciousness to something better on an energetic level.

I digress. Moving on:

For the few years before I retired, I realized I could not love anymore. It was a dead emotion. I could feel empathy for others, cry, be happy when they cried and were happy, but it was their emotion I was bouncing back to them, not my own. The only thing I give a damn about is the animals. (Now THOSE I can love with no problem. 😉)

So, it bothered me as to why I could not love. Alexa's words: "There is no time to feel feelings – too many people are counting on you!"

When a friend would ask me to play hooky, take a day off from work, I couldn't. I had to go to work because the burden of leaving the task to others was too great. They honestly did not know the tricks of the trade I'd learned, what questions to ask, where to look for the records… I was counted on to be there. And honestly, dealing with the aftermath of said situation only made my job worse. I'd have to go back over stacks of transcript requests and re-do them. I eventually got a co-worker who helped a great deal and got a crash-course on the type of job I was faced with. Bless his heart, he acclimated well into the job to cover for me when I got sick or needed a break. But we would STILL have to deal with the daily nightmares.

I finally got to the point where Source demanded I retire and focus on my scripts. (My only passion.) I've now been off work for almost 5 months and I'm only just NOW realizing many things about myself.

Second part of the second area I highlighted:

"What has actually been created is a sense of self-importance stemming from a place of insecurity rather than a desire for true service (Me, here: Law of One speaks of Service to Others, rather than Service to Self), which is an outward extension of self to other self, emanating from a deep, still core of Love. Running from one activity to another, even in the name of "good works," is self-involved—it's receiving rather than serving. Unless motives and intentions are clear, it is easy to confuse the two." (Me, here: I think it's the idea of "If I'm busy I won't have to look inside me to see why I'm so busy. I won't have to look at the reasons I need to be busy so I can ignore who I am deep within.")

But where is this leading to my train of thought?

To the final highlighted area in that chapter – to find stillness and connect with Oneness.

"When stillness knocks, you have the option of answering the call or not. You can lean toward the call of Oneness and the exploration of All That Is, or you can remain steadfastly in the illusion, moving quickly from one fix of duality to the next. Will you self-medicate or reach for the stillness? Ramp up the intensity or choose peace? No one can answer these questions but you."

When we immerse ourselves in things outside ourselves, we lose connection to who we are in the Oneness. When we focus on the hatred, the negative, the things that are WRONG with the world outside, we fail to see what is actually going on inside of us. For almost two decades, I floundered in a sea of chaos and confusion and stress. I got cancer because of it. (survivor going on 9 years now, thank you. 😉) Even writing my scripts has become another 'fix' for me to immerse myself in rather than focus on how to AWAKEN further.

What is going on 'out there' is a beast needing to be fed. The beast of fear who seeks to devour us by getting us to hate what we fear. Many in our country fear immigrants, Muslims, drug dealers, gangs, lack of gun control, hate crimes, our rights being stolen from us over our bodies. And so they combat those fears, sometimes hiding behind God's skirts to do it, or battling God's skirts to get to the perpetrators behind them. Who is really the Cabal in this? Who is really the Reptillian dark force base in this? And why the heck are we falling for their agenda of hate and division?

Who are you… really? Deep down in the core of your being? (I'm asking myself these questions, too, so you're not alone.) When can we just back up and retreat and hide in the stillness and look deep within our own souls and try to resurrect compassion and Oneness with All That Is? Even for those who, on the surface, are miserable hate-mongers? Do they even know what Love is? It could very well be they don't, and that is actually a very sad way to be. It sure as heck doesn't feel good to me.  

I know now why my heart is incapable of Love, real compassionate love. Now that I'm AWARE, I need to deal with the wounds and heal them. I want to know what it's like to love people. I've had to hide who I am for so long I forgot how to BE as opposed to DO.

Nothing wrong with being both, but I'd rather BE first so I can then know what to Do.

I hope this has helped in some way.

Blessings.

UFO Insights: Disclosure... But What Kind? Part 1

I'm reading "The Zero Point" by Alexa Person, her first book. This lady writes with great style and flare, so it's not dry reading, and it's very eye-opening. The other day when I awoke I turned over my cell phone to check the time, but found my Kindle App had been opened instead… to this book I'd uploaded months ago and had yet to read through. Nothing strange about that, right? Except when I went to bed the night before, the Kindle App had not been turned on. No Apps were turned on. I turned my cell phone over to simply avoid the sometimes flashing of light it gives when notifications come through. So, this book was staring me in the face from the cell phone screen. I don't remember opening the book before shutting down the App (I haven't looked at my Kindle in months, so I don't honestly remember if I was going to start reading this book and it just remained in Que for when I opened it again. But I know damn well I didn't open the Kindle App before going to bed. There was nothing on the cell phone screen but my picture of Steve and Bucky from Captain America. I'd turned it over and went to bed. Woke up, turned it back over and there the Kindle App was opened and the book was BAM! In my face.)

Well, I figured the ETs must want me to read this baby, so I began. I'm two days in and up to chapter 7 and… I'm floored. I at first thought it was going to be some 'airy-fairy' channeling book by another 'Pleadian' source and honestly… I'm soooo over those. Channels speak in generalization terms. "The energy wave you're feeling is geared to open you up and advance you on your course… The world is moving towards its goal. We are with you in spirit and light." Blah, blah, blah, and so on and so forth. (The only channeled sessions I'm reading right now is The Law of One, the RA Material and that only because the channeling was done scientifically and totally different than what we normally see with channels. I'm not saying all channels are charlatans, but be discerning, okay? If they don't speak about specific things and keep their messages generalized, glean what you can from their messages, and leave the rest alone. Even those who did the RA Material encourage this with their messages.)

But… it turns out "The Zero Point" is a life-story of Alexa's move into spiritual advancement. And so far a few things she's said really digs into my own life as of late.

One such item of interest was from Chapter 6 Love (Almost) under the section: "This Thing Called Life."

Some background: For the last two years or so I've been grinding my teeth under our current Administration. How it is ripping us apart as a nation, pitting us against them, the racial bigotry that is rearing its ugly head once again in a sharper focus than ever. The Misogyny of the Patriarchal society we've chosen to give power to. The rights of humans to think for themselves being threatened. The lack of love the lack of tolerance, the lack of HUMANE treatment for both humans and animals. The screams of Gaia who is trying to get our attention regarding our environment and climate change. Guys, this world is falling apart and it's because of… HATRED AND GREED.

People within the UFO community are actually praising Trump thinking he's going to save this world and bring about Disclosure. Ummm, hate to break it to you guys, but it isn't going to happen. He's already sided with the 1% in giving them their huge tax breaks and passing the bill over to the middle-class and poor. His divisionary mentality is placing Americans on an Elitist mentality that is turning more bigoted with each day. He's ignoring the Constitution in a very blatant way and his Ego is far from non-Cabalistic. Oh, he's part of the Cabal. I guarantee it. You don't place a man with these issues in power because you think Disclosure is going to happen. Oh, Disclosure will happen, but it won't be the kind you're hoping for.

What exactly am I saying here? Something that hit me out of the blue with Alexa's book that I'll be sharing with you in the next blog installment. Stick with me here.

So, for the last few years, I've rampaged and ranted and roared (The three R's) about what I see happening to this country and why. But I really didn't understand 'why?' Until recently. When a certain author, who shall remain nameless, but figures prominently in the UFO Disclosure community (no, it isn't David Wilcock) wrote a book and in that book praised Trump and Bannon I about lost my shit. I got to his Facebook page and private messaged him asking him point blank how such men could even be thought of as heroes to Disclosure, much less praised for it, considering their questionable characters. He replied a few days later saying how the Military wanted Trump in power to bring down what he referred to as 'The Deep State.' That Trump wasn't part of the Cabal and would set in motion Full Disclosure of Government control and cover-up. The first red flag was 'Military wanting Trump in power.' That alone sent shivers up my spine, and I responded with that. "The fact that we've been warned against the Military Industrial Complex and you're saying the 'Military' wanted him in power doesn't raise red flags with you????"

It took him three weeks to respond and all he said was "The enemy of our enemy is…." And that was his response. I immediately responded: "Is still and enemy. I'm sorry, sir, but I can no longer support your work or your books. I'm throwing your books away." And I never heard from him again.

This shook me up so badly that I broke down in tears. I want Disclosure, don't get me wrong, but putting our faith in ANY MAN, I don't care WHO it is… is not what we should be focusing on in my personal opinion. Especially a man of Trump's character with his Narcissism and lack of ethics. I was furious, and though I had never channeled any ETs or anyone for that matter, I cried out for answers as to 'why, why, WHY did they want HIM in the position of President over our country?' And would you believe the answer rolled into my brain so quickly there was no way it could have come from me? My thoughts don't rush in THAT fast.

It's not that they wanted HIM in the seat of the President. It's that with him, we would be forced to see the gangrenous wounds of our people. We are far from a loving nation, contrary to what the Evangelical Christians say. We are NOT a Christian nation, and not because this nation is against Christianity. We are being overrun by Christians in this nation who hope to turn this country into a Theocracy. "Trump is going to turn this nation back to God! That's why I'm supporting him!" One person on a friend's Facebook newsfeed, just wrote that yesterday. If that shouldn't also send a shiver up your spine, then the wounds of this nation are deeper than first realized.

This is not Christianity… not by a long shot. Christians are running amuck because they believe they have a man in power who will reverse Gay Rights and Pro-Choice, the two major agendas they want to see accomplished. They are basically anti-free-will. We've had this type of behavior before. It was called The Dark Ages. Religion and Politics DO NOT MIX! Moral ethics are not indigenous to Christianity or any monotheistic religion, therefore we do not need religion to teach them to us. They base their hard-edged agendas against those of other religions, too. It's gotta be Christianity or nothing. Does that sound like an Unconditionally loving religion to you? I'm not saying all Christians are like this, but the ones screaming out the loudest… yeah. Them. Uh-huh – What would Jesus do?

So… when the answer came, I heard this: "Your nation is not the loving nation it could be. What you are seeing is the result of the wounds of your nation having the scabs ripped off. The poison is now coming to the surface to be seen by many, many people. An AWAKENING is happening. Your country is complacent in its spiritual advancement. Materialism, the seeking of wealth, the us versus them mentality, the racial bigotry, the intolerance of choice and sexual identity, greed of the machine… all of these things are killing you from the inside out. We did not want Trump and his Administration to obtain power other than to show you how to wake up and that you NEED to wake up."

I broke down and wept. THIS I could get on board with. THIS was the Disclosure. Once we heal the wounds of this nation through love and light working, through energy transformation, awakening the souls and spirits of those who have, like me, been complacent for so long… THEN the Full Disclosure will happen, but not until then. Even Corey Goode has said it time and time again: "It starts with us."

We have to look within ourselves, see who we really are. I chose to turn away from what is happening in D.C., and the world. I chose to 'bury my head in the sand' not to ignore it and hope it goes away, but to not feed the beast of hatred anymore. And what I read this morning from Alexa's book is what the next installment of this Blog will be about. (End Part 1)

Brace yourself. It's going to be heavy... and beautiful. 😊